you've got to L.O.V.E your neighbours

you've got to L.O.V.E your neighbours
My mind is a bit frazzled today. I feel hollowed out by an ice cream scoop.
In a week tomorrow I get my results. In a week on Wednesday everything will be done and it's just a void. A void of moneylessness.
How are you supposed to stare into that void and not start reaching for a brown paper bag to stop the panic attacks?
It's dumb because i need a job but I can't face filling out application forms as I'm too afraid of the rejection. Looks like i might have some deep set issues here. Which is always nice to know. Gives me something to talk about in the interviews i won't get when i don't fill out the forms.

I wish I was one of those carefree people who just went traveling when there was nothing else to do.

Or cleaned when they were stressed
Or exercised more to take their minds off things. Never do I think when running I just concentrate on not thinking so i don't bail off the pavement...